so bored...

i just got standbyed on a double team game in halo...i hate people who standby...i thought bungie fixed that crap.

screw the human race in general.

screw them in the ear.

on a lighter note, i went to my grandma's house today for sort of a belated birthday for my aunt, my uncle, and myself. i can't describe how exciting that was...but i did get some birthday money, which is always welcome. my family is so stereotypical...i've always yearned for a psycho uncle who eats babies or something...maybe a cataclysmic cousin who raises man-eating emus? heck, i'd even take a passive psycho...like a nephew who hides his social hermitry by being active in a nazi regime and he willingly shares his odd homiletics with us...but to no avail.

i go back to college in 3 weeks or something. i'm excited, but at the same time i'm not. this stupid town is soooo boring and i'm ready for some excitement, but at the same time i feel i haven't accomplished much of anything this summer. i mean don't get me wrong...doing nothing RULES...but for some reason i thought that this summer i would become president or swim to the moon (don't ask) or something...but instead i spent alot of it being didactical to people who were actually trying something that was new...taking a chance...which was quite hypocritical on my part...it is envy perhaps, or maybe simply fear of change...

WARNING: THE NEXT TWO PARAGRAPHS ARE SATURATED WITH ME BEING EMO...YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED...NUBS

recently i've discovered a phobia of mine...fear of failure...no, i'm not an isolated reject who lives his life in a sort of narcotic manner in front of his computer/tv/refrigerator...its more of a fear of pertaking in something that could potentionally lead to failure...this includes stuff like jobs, women, hobbies, etc. nobody likes to fail at anything obviously, but the thought of failure shouldn't change the tenacity i have in accomplishing certain goals...this is something that i'm going to have to learn to overcome myself...a "life lesson" perhaps...hmmm...this "phobia" has never really been a big deal, but lately some people i know have been in some bad situations because of issues with a significant other of the opposite sex and its sorta changed my outlook on the importance of being in a relationship right now or whatever...the thought of being in a defined relationship, something that i really wanted just a few months ago, isn't nearly as intoxicating now...this is sort of a double-edged sword...i don't worry about it nearly as much as a did for the last few months which takes alot of stress off of me, but at the same time i may be potentionally missing out on some memorable experiences.

this aspect of my life is kinda up in the air right now, and i really don't know where it's going to go once college starts, but i'm going to try not to worry about it and basically go where it takes me.

haha i sounded like such an emo fag just then...o well, its my livejournal and i can do whatever i want in it so ha! ^_^

o that gwen stefani, she has a lovely voice, but good lord she is weird...not that weird is a bad thing, actually its a good thing...what i'm trying to say is...umm....that gwen stefani is hott...and she's having my babies.

speaking of babies, i'm tired now so i'm going to go to bed. one thing i don't do is go back and re-read what i type because when it comes to writing/typing i'm a perfectionist...so if i was to re-read what i typed i would probably say to myself "holy crap brandon you sound so gay here" and quickly delete everything i just typed and try to make it sound better...

have a wonderful night my sexy people...all 3 of u that read it haha
(maybe i should get a XXAAANNGGAAAA...or not)